I have always believed that
when our animals come into our lives, that they are there for life. In the
weekly ad for the local humane society, often times it will say that this cat
or dog was surrendered because the owners were moving and couldn’t take the pet
with them or that they could no longer afford to keep them. I always wonder how
anyone could do that, yet that is what I did to my kids’ dog.
Muffins was a mutt, but her predominant
breed was certainly German Shepard, which made her very protective of her
people. When my first husband moved out when she was not quite two years old,
she felt it was her responsibility to keep me and my two kids safe. When
Muffins was outside, strangers wouldn’t get out of their vehicles in our yard.
She would not only bark and growl at them, she would bark threateningly at
anyone walking down the road.
If the kids were out playing
in the yard, Muffins stayed close to them. But if she went out alone and wasn’t
securely tied to something, off she would run. With his 80-year-old mother in
the passenger seat, the town constable pulled his ancient pickup into my
driveway a few times and threatened to fine me if the neighbors complained
again. Lucky for me George never wrote me a ticket. Not so lucky for Muffins
though.
One Saturday in June 1995, I
drove her to the humane society and left her there. Of all the things I’ve done
in my life, right or wrong, that was the hardest. I have no justification for
what I did. I was a single mom, raising two kids and I didn’t need to deal with
a dog that I couldn’t handle.
When I get really stressed
out, I go cross-eyed (a big secret of mine). On the way home that day, with dog
hair in the car and a squeak toy still on the floor, I could barely drive my eyes
were so crossed.
5 comments:
You always told us that you found a nice family on a farm that wanted her :'(
That's what I told you at first, but I am sure that at some point, when you were older, that I told you the truth. See what a horrible mother I was.
You did what you had to do, given the circumstances. I've been there and understand.
Thanks, Holly, for the support. We've all got lists of things we regret. It's time to just let them go.
I agree with Holly you did what you thought best. Your heart had to been hurting. Besides me I don't know of anyone who loves animals more.
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